Ok.. this one isn't going to be about weight loss at all, but about school and how incredibly nervous I am!
My evaluation observation is today. The administrator has been given my lesson plans and I have a my powerpoint ready and all of my lesson plans set up with all of my handouts. My classroom is sort of messy, but as soon as I take a shower, I'm going to go remedy that situation. I am going to be amazing. I am going to wander and make sure everybody is working. I am going to check for understanding. I am going to make sure that my students all understand what theme is. I am going to be amazing. I am unnerved.
Because my life has been going through so many changes recently, I am gaining a certain amount of confidence in myself. I hope that confidence comes through in my classroom today. I hope that I shine as bright as the Chrysler building! :) I hope I do great things. I'm not exactly as well planned for my Junior class as I would like, but so that goes, I suppose.
I am rambly today because I am nervous. I am nervous because I am afraid to get a bad review. Even though I have tenure, even though I have a decent respect of the administration and my own limitations, I am afraid of getting a bad review. But I am a great teacher. I connect to my students, I pay attention to their needs. I know my materials and my curriculum. I *am* a good teacher. So why do I suddenly feel that I totally lack confidence? Why am I so nervous and scared all of a sudden? I'm not sure.
I have to take a shower and pick out some clothes to wear. I have had my coffee for today, eaten my cottage cheese with pineapple, and have plans for lunch with a teacher friend to debrief and talk about lesson plans and stuff and a plan with AM to unwind and watch Full Metal Alchemist (awesome anime) to unwind this evening. Today will be a good day. I know it will. I'm just.. crossing my fingers and my toes and would even cross my ovaries..if I could!
Love and lollipops and wish me luck!
Tory
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