Morose. Morose Morose Morose Morose. I like that word, Morose. I've sort of liked it ever since I heard it on Chasing where Jay comes in on a brooding (yet hot) Ben Affleck (Holden), and says "Well, look at this morose motherfucker". I just like the word. Apparently I overuse it though.
I am morose today. I am sour, glum, moody, crabby, cranky, disconsolate, saturnine, ill natured, splenetic. If I didn't have to go to work to do my post-observation conference, I probably wouldn't go. I will go though, with my best smile on and in my most comfortable clothes I can get away with at work (black jeans, black shirt and my new trendy sweater).
I think my observation went well yesterday. I find out today during my prep, but my students were (mostly) on task, the lesson was well prepared. I knew what I was doing. If only I could be as well prepared every day. Teaching is draining. Life is draining. It's not that I'm exhausted (although I did get up at 2:45 this morning) it's just that I'm drained. I feel that life has ebbed out of me today. I know that it is chemical, some neuron in my brain misfiring or some lack of hormone or something, so I am not going to worry about it. I will be on an upswing soon enough. I can handle this affliction without adding more chemicals to my brain that I don't need. I will sip my coffee, suckle the caffeine teat, and try to energize myself for just two more days of school until the blessed blessed weekend.
Morose! (You know, the more I use the word.. the less meaning it has. Maybe I will stop using it.)
(By the way, of all the Kevin Smith View Askewniverse movies, my favorites go in this order... Chasing Amy, Dogma, Clerks, Clerks 2, Jay and Silent Bob, Mallrats. I have a signed 10th anniversary edition of Clerks. It is awesomesauce. Oh now I wish I could take those to school and watch them. Now that would cheer me up.)
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