Episode 69: Oh What a Beautiful Morning!!!

I love mornings like this.  I love these types of beautiful mornings where there is just the thinnest layer of frost on the roof (just enough to leave a white  transluscent layer) and as I walk, the grass crunches beneath my feet in a white layer.  This will all wear off within an hour of the sun rising, but getting to school early enough to see this is stunning. I'm a morning person. Something I do not share with my life partner, AM. He would rather sleep until noon and then stay up until 1 or 2 in the morning. This affords me a few quiet hours on my days off to let me just reset and work... Or to just to sit around watching Netflix and reading, but we all find our happiness in different places. This means though, that I fall asleep at 10ish. If not am not recumbent by 9:30, I get cranky... Like bear coming out of hibernation cranky. AM is patient though, and loves me and so when I get, cranky, he hugs me and tells me he loves me. When I get up tomorrow morning, I am going to wake up happy and alive, get out of bed and be excited to start my day. I will see my students tomorrow after over a week away from them. (I missed them, but you will never hear ever admit it... Much). Tomorrow is going to be a good morning, just like today was a good day. Goodnight, gentle readers. I wish you all the happy mornings to come. Love and Lollipops, ToryLynn

Episode 18: Here I go again...

OK, so, after a 2 week break, and a weekend of not blogging, or keeping track of much of my food and stuff, I am back.  I am back because I need to work on myself and this seems to be the only way that it happens, if I am beholden to a large group of people who follow.  I am back because truly I am exhausted with myself and that my weight seems to be holding me back from so much.  I need to really work out this change.

I have two alarm clocks.  One of them is on my phone and the other is an actual physical alarm clock.  My phone is using an app called "Gentle Alarm" which is supposed to work with your circadian rhythms and if you happen to be waking up a half an hour earlier than your regular alarm clock, coming out of that deep REM cycle where exhaustion lies, Gentle Alarm nudges you during that time and reminds you that you should probably be getting up soon, as that sleep cycle is done.  If you happen to be in deep REM sleep at that time,  you simply ignore whatever sound the alarm plays and continue to sleep for another half an hour. Today, REM was not in my favor and I woke up at 4:30 instead of 4.  My "get the hell out of bed, you can't snooze me!" alarm is set for 5 and resides across my bedroom from where I normally sleep.  This alarm affords me an hour or so before I have to go to work, wherein I hope to complete my daily ablutions, have coffee, confirm my lesson plans for the day and and get ready for work.

So, rather than develop this as an evening habit after I put in my points and review my day, I am hoping to make this a morning habit, where I motivate myself (and perhaps my friends and family around me) to lose weight and get healthier.  I know I can use the motivation.  I gained .2 pounds this week.  It's not a huge gain, and it could probably be water weight or just regular body fluctuations, but I really want to see the little minus signs before the numbers instead of after them.

So, new schedule has to be set.  It is time for me to grow up and take over my life.. because nobody else is going to do it for me.

Love to all who support and follow me. This is going to be a great day!

ToryLynn